Thursday, August 19, 2010

Angsty Teens

Stumbled across a reminder of my angsty teen years - I had a poster of the following quote up on my wall from the movie Trainspotting (talk about 90's heroin scene right?). It's just amazing how different I interpret this 'quote' now, when I know that choosing life isn't choosing mediocrity and the mundane, but stepping into the unknown and living by faith - the most adventurous life there is.

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a f**ing big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suit on hire purchase in a range of f***ing fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the f*** you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing f***ing junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, f***ed up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

I must admit, had a small chuckle at the feeble attempt to be anti-authority/anti-mainstream/anti-everything, when succumbing to the idea of 'heroin chic' that was so popular in the 90's is one of the most conformist positions one can take.

Reminds me of the verse that says "I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both you and your children may live."

The people I know who have chosen life are some of the most compassionate, charming, insanely hilarious and kooky people you will ever meet.